You never really know what you’re capable of until you push yourself.
But when you do, and you hold a print out of something that will be used by thousands of people to communicate with their customers, you smile.
You feel like the pain, the sleepless nights, the entire mess was completely worth it.
It’s not about races and laps. I hate that analogy for success.
For me, it’s more like getting onto a treadmill. Every step you take towards the end of your run, you feel you’ll fall off, but you keep your eyes on that little digital counter and keep going. And you push for that one meter more. Just a few steps more than yesterday. And it works. Success is not always about ‘beating’ someone else. It’s more about being better today than you were yesterday.
I found myself wondering today. I was wondering if I’ve let myself go too much. Am I really moving towards what I want? Am I fighting the ‘good fight’?
It’s one of those times when the brain goes on an overdrive. When there seem to be too many things unsaid, unthought, undone and unnerving.
It’s been a week of that.
But in the midst of it all, I’m glad that I managed to keep my cool and walk out with a certain grace. I’m glad that I managed to push myself this far. I wasn’t even sure that I would make it this far. But I did, and now is the time when you take it one step at a time. When you tell yourself that you can get off the treadmill anytime you like. But just take that one step more, that one meter that will get you a little closer to that magic number you’ve been thinking of for years.
And yes, that ribbon will be cut. Not as much when reaching the finishing line, as in knowing that you are now the best you can be under these circumstances.
Last laps be damned. 😛