I haven’t blogged in a long time and I hadn’t even noticed till The Husband brought it up today.
I seem to be getting more and more absorbed in my own life, taking very little time to connect with others. And I am not even bothered to wonder why.
I seem to have calmed down, found my balance, my peace, my kickboxing, my cooking, my movies, my coursework and my life back.
I refuse to put up with too much nonsense and I feel no compelling reason to relate to other people “just because”. I like my space and privacy and my thoughts and my work.
It feels good, after all this time, to finally be free of all constraints. Self-imposed and imaginary and the very real. It feels good to sleep peacefully and not rush in the mornings. To do what I love doing, to learn as much as I am and to be as much in control of my life as I am right now.
The person I am today is so different from who I was a year or two ago. And yet so same. It’s like, I have found the courage, at last, to be who I want to be and not live to please a million others. For the first time in my life, I find that I put myself first and I have never felt better.
Yes, there’s very little to talk about in this new found peace of mine. But drama queen that I am, I know the masala will return. Until then, I am. I just am… 🙂